for jie jie

[a rather long and extremely indulgent post]


well, time really flies, doesnt it? i mean, gosh, you're getting married, like, tomorrow!

never thought that would ever happen. =P

i have so many things to say - all these thoughts and memories all swimming around in my head.

so let's begin when i first entered your life, shall we? cos we all know what a miraculous and joyous occasion it was :D i know i must've been such an annoying little brat to you. what to do, i was all little and cute and adorable; whereas you were this gawky, awkward pre-teen. ok fine, so you weren't gawky nor awkward. speaking of which, what's it with you getting all the good genes? bigger boobs, fairer skin, prettier face... wey, didnt think of leaving something for me ah?

ok, so i got the brains. NYAHAHA.

(yes i'm kidding.)

and eh, remember the barbie incident? you had your very first barbie doll (at the age of 12, you poor deprived soul XD ), so understandably you were reluctant to let me play with it. you were so worried that i'd pull barbie's head off. then you kena scolded by mum and was forced to relent.

and then i pulled barbie's head off.

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! sorry la but i think it's damn funny! so kesian la, the next thing u knew, you were staring at barbie's head rolling on the floor. woot!

it just cracks me up! XD

we weren't really that much close when i was a kid. i mean, an age gap of 11 years, what would one expect. but as i grew up, i suppose the age gap sorta narrowed? in a way, you knew what i was going through. and even when mum and dad didnt see through my lies and tall stories, you did. which was kinda annoying. been there, done that, eh? must be la.

so i guess sometimes you were more understanding than mum and dad, but STILL not that understanding! i mean, not letting me watch Friends before i turned 18? aiyo please la, the silly show was already so heavily censored anyway!

(and yeah, those tv-hogging days you had last time were seriously annoying. yes i know you were deprived of tv during your schooling years. but thank goodness the frog came along and distracted you. heh.)

like most sisters are, one moment we're all nice to each other, and next we're quarreling over something idiotic, especially when we shared a room last time. bloody hell.

common gripes are when i want to stay up late to study or whatever and you'd want to sleep early (sometimes right after dinner so you can watch football later - like, puh-leese!). or you wanting to switch the fan on and i'd be sneezing away (yes i caught cold so many cos of YOU, you evil person). and your silly aromatherapy thing was damn annoying leh - the smell and the candlelight!

actually the moment you fell asleep i'd blow out the damn candle. MUAHAHA.

but eh, you've gotta gimme some credit for massaging you when you had backaches :D and for entertaining you at night when both of us just talked til you asked me to shut up we fell asleep.

(until now you refuse to say goodnight to me, hor? like, wth.)

then we shifted to cheras and we had our own separate rooms finally - woot!

then cheras being cheras, sucky location and stupid traffic jams, so you went to live with frog and his aunt.

then we hardly saw each other already lor. some more frog takes up so much of your time. *rolls eyes*

i know these past few weeks have been quite dahsyat. what with dad being all irritating and getting on your nerves. how he's just so annoying sometimes and his mindset can be so freaking ridiculous. and i know how it is when he gets so agitated. just feel like yelling back sometimes, yeah? maybe he's agitated that he might lose face cos no alcohol during lunch reception (*rolls eyes*). maybe he's agitated cos not enough tables for his friends (*rolls eyes again*).

but maybe deep down there's this nagging feeling he cant quite place.

it's because you're getting married. and he's your dad after all. those silly agitations - it's just on the surface, ok? so just bear with it for a while.

as for frog, it's memang well-known he's a last-minute kind of person. he does get things done in the end anyway, but you being you, wanting things to be organised and all. learn to live with it la. or you don't have to. you're a woman, manipulate him.

just kidding la. heh.

anyway, i'm supposed to go try on the bridesmaid dress again. to see how much tissue i need to stuff in my bra to fill out the dress if the dress still fits.

>_<"