happy birthday Malaysia!

yeah, here's to our love-hate relationship. *waves flag*

btw, since i'm in a relatively good mood i'll shall be nice and let u all into a little secret.

must not go around telling people, k? hehehe.

cos it's my latest love interest.

really. now i tell u all, u all must help me also, k. as in help me get the guy la.

so yeah, i met him in uni. he's, erm, tall, should be quite smart, he's really quite noble, should be kinda rich, and the way he moves... omg the way he moves... such speed, such grace, such efficiency, such prowess...

and we havent really talked la but got exchange a few words. he's a busy, busy man, really.

=)

oh btw i'm talking bout the roti canai man. yes he makes and sells roti canai at the place behind the library.

yay roti canai man! i wannna marry him la hahahahahahaha.

he's obviously older la but he's no fat indian guy, not that i have anything against them.

i'm not being lame, ok!

justification:

tall - he's taller than *me* so that makes him tall. do NOT argue on that. =p

smart - he's got good memory. he remembers who ordered what. eh, no easy feat considering a lot of ppl makan his roti canai.

noble - also, he makes sure those who ordered first get their roti canai first.

rich - and the amount of customers he gets contributes to him financially.

as for the way he moves haha, i'm referring to the way he makes roti canai. damn efficient la. so yao yeng some more! absolute yeng-ness wey! XD

and obviously he makes good roti canai. my personal favourite is roti bom roti planta roti pisang roti this roti that but i have yet to try his roti kayaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

but hor, the most romantic thing he's ever said to me was "roti bom dua?".

so sad. ='(

ya la, so if u all want to eat roti canai at my wedding reception then quick help me get the guy!

and yes, i'm only kidding. please la.

i mean, of COURSE i wont just be having roti canai at our wedding reception! what were u thinking, tsk.

......

uni no leng chais mah, can't blame me ok. heh.

damn fucking tulan

because it was damn shitass.

because there was NO FREAKING ANSWER let alone the slides.

very hard to find answers ah? wtf.

and i only knew, what, LESS THAN 5 MINS before we were gonna go up front.

had to BORROW notes from another grp WTFWTFWTFWTF.

i know NUTS but had to go and cakap more than half of it.

i did my part quite well, ok. but ya, forgot, it's teamwork. diff expectations.

it's all over but i'm still damn tensed.

*calms down*

ok la gtg study la didnt know got 3 essay questions for exam tomorrow la so i'm gonna die la.

='(

wtf

now i have to try and sift through your less than perfect answers.

PLUS u tell me there's this question u can't do.

WHERE were u when we met up?

bengang sial.

don't brush me away

and all i want to do is to hug you tight. then i'll sit next to you, and we'll just talk. or rather, you will talk. cos i think there's more to you. is there?

if you'll tell me, i'll listen.

this is not a meme

because i'm in the mood for procrastinating reminiscing. neh, that 20yrs ago, 10 yrs ago, 5 yrs ago, etc etc.

20 years ago, i was only what, 5 months old. truth be told, i wasnt a very cute baby *cough* not until i had more hair and started teething (my toothy grin very cute wan, ok). i was born with nice ears wan, but my aunt-cum-babysitter simply put me in the sarong thingy where i got my ears squashed outwards. hence my hobbit/elfish/orc ears now.

(digression: eh, i dont feel like doing it 20yrs 15yrs 10yrs 5 yrs. so restrictive =P )

when i was two i stuck my fingers in my birthday cake.

when i was three and four, mom and dad would take turns bringing me to their workplace cos no one at home to jaga me. mom worked in telekom where there were rows of computers and a lot of women. dad worked in angkasapuri where there were rows of big machines and a lot of men. sometimes i played in the newsroom when it was empty, where i'll sit in the newsreader's chair. there is a fishpond in angkasapuri.

when i was five, i entered kindergarten. it's damn tiny but it was my world then. the very first day of kindy we were all given nametags. they were shaped like little umbrellas. my favourite place was on top of the slide where i would just perch there and refuse to slide down til the other kids bugged me. i was very good friends with this boy (who still lives nearby my old pj house, i think). he liked me, i liked him, and we played together. we were so alike then, but so different now.

when i was six, i kena rotan once in kindy because i couldnt remember the anatomy of a fish. there was this hugeass drawing of a fish and the teacher would point with her rotan at the different parts. if u were lucky the teacher pointed at the fish's tail and all u had to say was "wei ba". everyone wanted "wei ba". i think i got the fin. and until now i dunno how to say it in mandarin HAHAHAHAHA *cough*

when i was seven, my form teacher was hong lao shi. i had a classmate who had 6 fingers on one hand which i now think is uber cool. my best friend then was called lydia. anyone knows where she is now? haha.

when i was eight we learned our timetables and we mainly played pepsi-cola, abc, ice and water, tiao sheng. or whatever those games were called.

when i was nine, i fell off my bike and my face got scratched.

when i was ten, i changed from a good, obedient student to a lazy, forgetful one. i'd be in front of the class practically everyday either because i didn't do my homework or forgot to bring it, or both. i was more interested in reading enid blyton books under my desk hehe. my results dropped so drastically that daddy was so shocked on report card day, he bellowed at me in front of the whole class. and i think dad started to hate enid blyton for quite a while after that. hehe.

when i was eleven i started reading manga! XD my first manga was *deng deng deng* SAILORMOON. ok shut up already. it's actually quite decent leh. oh and also inuyasha or 犬夜叉. i can't believe it's still running. is it? like neverending.

when i was twelve i had my hair chopped off to a boycut, which was obviously not a good idea. i had my first crush hahaha. i liked this classmate cos, erm... i also dunno why haha. just for the sake of having a crush i guess. and the best thing was he was already declaring his love for this other totally cute classmate. oh and he lives behind my old pj house. heh.

when i was thirteen i read my sister's diary. she found out by reading MY diary. it was the biggest fight we had, but oddly, i'm smiling as i think of it.

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ok la lazy to blog edi. now back to work. shit i'm so behind.

til when?

i'm tired of waiting.

i don't like being all flighty and frivolous.

i don't need it but i want it.

in the midst of me being busy and all...

i still wait for something to happen.

so yeah, i'm tired of waiting.

cos i deserve so much better.

yet i wait. wtf man.

miss brightside!

nyahaha dowan to be emo anymore. must be happy! the next time u see any emo posts from me please boycott my blog.

kidding la. dont boycott my blog. ok? hehe.

so yeah it's better to just say "to hell with it" and look on the bright side cos everything has its bright side no matter what and dammit if u dont' agree pls don't contradict me okie? :D

see, i'll even list down things to be happy about!

- roti bom for breakie after this! like, soon! yay.

- had mcDs last night for dinner. eh i miss the nuggets ok...

- only two more exams to go!

- one class cancelled today!

- shall have ice-blended mocha later! if the damn van is there and not driving off leaving me to mourn.

- steamboat this friday night! juniors with seniors. the seniors call it STEAM night... WTH. -_-"

- and mommy's birthday dinner on sat night! guess wat she wants to eat? yeah, steamboat. woot.

- so that means can see sis this weekend too, haha. havent seen her since the pregnant post ok. wonder if her tummy kembang already wahahahaha.


oooh ok ok gonna go eat~ hungry hungry.

:D :D :D

i can't think of a title

pensive.

what did i do today?

so where is the passion when you need it the most.

is it just me or is everything shrinking further and further out of reach?

you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost.

sometimes i feel so far-removed. too wrapped up in my comfort zone. i get impatient with myself yet i won't budge, i refuse to see things the way they are.

you sing a sad song just to turn it around

but i can't turn it around. at least not yet.

i get the feeling all this despondancy pours out during times like these as they've been repressed for too much for too long.

i dont think you'd see me like this. nah. cos i don't have the guts. and plus it's just too weird for me. yeah, me. i don't care so much of how you'd take it muahaha.

*mood bounces back unexpectedly*

so here're what's been happenening lately. in my life of course. *flips hair*

- got locked out of uni campus one hot sunny afternoon. wtf la, they go and change the timing of closing the gate and all.

- kononnya got rape case in my uni just recently but it's not my coll la. wat's amusing is that i walked there alone at night on 2 occasions some time during the rape case hahaha. it's SAFE la haiyo.

- NO WATER last wed night. but (the one and only) guys' block got water. hello, where's the justice? make THEM carry pails of water la!

- have to go study now bye bye~

[edit] hey heard that there was another rape case again in a diff college this time. woot. i also scared edi hahaha. so erm people out there, be careful la. lock your room door and all. i'm pretty sure it doesnt just happen in my uni.

taking a breather

crazy sial. well, at least work has been keeping me busy. sorta.

managed to squeeze in SHOPPING yesterday wahahahahahhaha *HAPPY*

went pc fair and then shopping in klcc. me now have creative mp3 player :D

but 512mb oni cos 1G sudah habis ='(

and i also want laptop~ and digial camera~

*slaps self*

quite a number of romances blossoming in college. can already see couples emerging. O_o is it just me or it seems that it happens really fast?

oh well, some people are just... erm, lucky? *cough*

no, lucky is the girl whose hand was held by jj lin jun jie as he sang saranghaeyo ARGH me so jealous!!!!

*SNIFF*

good thing assignments and exams are keeping me moving, time seems to pass really fast (omfg is it already sunday?!) and i have good excuse reason to push things to the back of my head and maybe forget about it.

running away is good, u know? almost as good as acting blur.

oh c'mon, it's not really my fault anyway.

>_<

XD

was busy reading blogs while blogging and downloading mvs while listening to lin jun jie studying when sis and frog came back for the weekend.

me: *busy typing while spazzing at jj lin* hi sis~
sis: ya hi.
sis: eh go downstairs for a while.
me: why? got food ah? :D
sis: ...... just go down la, before that siti interview starts.
me: is it chocolate cake?
sis: aiya go down la!
me: heh okok.
me: so you put the food in the kitchen?
sis: ......

downstairs, sis looks at frog, frog looks back at sis.

frog: u tell la.
sis: mum, dad... u're gonna be grandparents. sherry, u're gonna be an aunt. =)

already hard enought to stomach (no pun) that sis is already married, and now she so fast get pregnant pula. wah lao.

sis kept laughing at me cos i was damn speechless. ish.

ok i have less than 8 months to learn how to carry a baby (as in with my arms not in my womb la pls -_-" )

yes, i don't know how to carry them babies.

DON'T laugh.

i damn scared to carry babies wan. not just newborns. ALL babies.

cos... cos... cos takut i drop them hahahahahahahahahaha so not funny ok.

phobia la!

*after siti nurhaliza interview*

sis: sherry, bought pao for u, in the kitchen.
me: :D

hehe, i knew there was food.

......

baby!

Baby!

BABY! XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD ad infinitum XD !!!

*happy excited whee!*

='D

sleepy

in point form cos i sleepy mah.

- so many ppl fall sick kena flu, it's scary.

- i have been eating a lot more.

- hence now got tummy.

- fried cempedak very nice XD

- assignments piling up hehehe wtf.

- i'm procrastinating double wtf.

- there's a huge-ass cockroach on the wall. it's stationary so i'm not too worried. yet.

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thx to reb i kinda miss form 6 too. was great hanging out with u guys. we saw each other practically every day and that kinda made me take it all for granted. weird random things that reb will say out of the blue; li qin squealing every 2 seconds at something she finds cute; and ooi jin being his usual annoying self. =P

i won't say seroja was the most fun-filled class but it did have its moments.

shit la, make me all sentimental and nostalgic. =')

......

i'm stupid, i know. i'm freaking 20 and i'm still such a dreamer. don't wake me up, dammit. let me dream. let me live in my own pink fluffy peachy world. and then when i do wake up i'll realise all the time i've wasted. all the unnecessary emo-ness i went through. so to point out the obvious, here's why i'm on such an emo state - it's because i conjure up picture-perfect situations and i airbrush people so much in my mind that reality doesnt just bite anymore, it freaking CHOMPS on me.

hopeless romantic in every way. everything i see must be so rose-tinted, u know? happy-go-lucky? more like obsessively in denial now.

i'm not patient or tolerant. i just don't like throwing what's going on in my mind into your face. so does that make me fake? gee, you tell me.

don't worry, the facade's coming down already, isnt it? thing is, did you ever realise there was one in the first place?

going down to eat some chocolate cake. i'm just not used to being like this.

i think i'm cute

uni's great, uni's great. i don't like word pad.

emo emo emo emo but i don't show it do i.

i feel like hitting you. real hard. why?

just because.

so yeah. i'll hit you again and again and again til my arms ache til i run out of energy til all i can manage are feeble feeble hits.

til i can't hit anymore.

and then... i don't know. you tell me what you'll do.

but right now the thought of hitting you non-stop is making me feel better, yeah.