BABY!!!! XD XD XD

firstly, thanks to all of u who sent me birthday wishes~ *hugs* and for those who sent in the morning, thank you and so sorry i didn't reply as i was very sleepy.

but even then, ONE sms made me sit up in bed, then run out of my room.

frog sent a msg telling that sis was getting ready for c section.

and not too long after, he called and announced...

it's a baby BOY~!!!!!! XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD XD

popped out at 10:04am, slightly more than one hour after me, 21 yrs ago.

you know, during the past weekend i was being all moody and emo and so not looking forward to today (it's the monday factor).

i am HAPPY now. =)

i can't stop smiling~!!! XD omg i wanna see the baybeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!

the baby's gonna be totally cute and smart and charming and wonderful and adorable, cos people born today are just made that way. XD

p.s. somebody teach me how to carry babies! esp newborns!!!!!!

XD

i share the same birthdate as my nephew, how cool is that? =D

somebody make me smile

1. i have probably failed my stats exam spectacularly.

2. more than three cups of coffee in a row upsets my tummy.

3. i don't want monday to come. i hate mondays more than ever.

4. mood flunctuating thanks to hormones and stress.

5. i don't like doing assignments in bm.

and i thought i had nothing for you anymore so go away, don't come back and confuse me. because for some reason i get muddled up easily when it comes to you. i'm not supposed to.

i am getting a little older and it feels like i'm packing up my childhood and teenage years into a balloon and letting it go and i'm standing there watching it float up up and away til it's nothing but a minute speck in the maddeningly blue cloudless sky.

...... oh and i lost all my scrubs season 1 til 5 cos i forgot to save them b4 my comp got reformatted. *smacks forehead*

how dumb am i? -_-"

i love grey's anatomy but scrubs is still THE best. nothing beats scrubs, man.

can't wait to get ice blended coffee this coming week. kopi satu, only in upm. WAHAHA. XD

help

i'm nervous, and i'm having cold feet.

i'm very very nervous, and not nervous in a good way. nervous in a way that makes me feel incompetent and incapable.

the nervousness u get when u realise something was of much bigger magnitude that u expected. much much bigger.

and i don't like it when things go unexpected, the wrong way.

and when pressure sets in.

please, i shouldnt be complaining. =( why am i complaining?

so there's nervousness and self-loathing now. yay. -_-"

=(

shall try to be as optimistic as i can. if i pull thru this week, i'll pull thru the next. and things will get better as i settle down.

[EDIT] p.s. i'm missing someone. how weird is that?

i'm not missing anyone! so there you go. -_-"

yes hello

am still alive and kicking and have not gone into hiatus! well, blame it on my preference of stoning and emo-ing instead of blogging now. oh and heroes plus grey's anatomy (which rock!) and to some small extent, goong (which doesnt rock as much but can't really say as i've only watched a bit).

lack of updates could also be attributed to the gila-ness of my comp these past few days. and no, i don't know wat's wrong with it. NOOB, remember. my comp just DIED on me. well ok, technically it did not DIE but i can't think of how else to say it. and oh u can see this post because it miraculously came alive again under my cousin's magic touch wth. -_-"

still, he couldnt pin-point what's wrong. feeling incredibly pressured and stressed because big assignment due this coming week and i'm screwed if i dont have my comp.

anyway, things have happened and one of them is friendships in process =) and then there are people who i can't bring myself to turn to anymore. no one's fault really, people change. and we move on, or at least i'm trying to. shouldnt be too hard as i'll be getting busy. i mean, zomg how in the world did time pass by SO FAST? 2nd tests coming REAL SOON and then it'll be finals and this sem would end just like that. fuiyoh, am still in O_o mode. still, am grateful i didnt do too badly for my 1st test (except for stats because stats is stupid and so am i). or it'll be added stress wth.

feel a little like i'm standing on a precipice. new beginning. i'll be on a 3 month probation, but was told that it's just formality (i hope?). pay's good enough, and i'm looking forward to the experience i'll gain. and speaking of which, i'm pretty much inexperienced and this could get in the way or impede the project. still, it's all about learning new experiences and learn i shall. plus, i'll be forced to seriously manage my time and take on responsibilities, which i havent done since... high school? oh, haha.

and that's good, because i'll be having my hands full and mind occupied. so things that wont matter will be taking a backseat, something i should have done a long time ago.

i'm looking forward to my very-soon-to-be hectic schedule. =D

oh wait. here's a pic of me in case some of u forgot how i look like.



and also because i love those pink umbrella flowers! someone please steal one for me. i WANT them pink umbrella flowers! they're so pwettyyyyy~ XD

...... but not as "pwettyyyyy~" as me wth. ya ya i know i'm doing the silly v thingy whatever la ya. cos i'm like, SO cute mah. -_-"

k, that's all! bye!

i can't be bothered with a title this time

my phone is mocking me. it refuses to emit ring-tones unless i smack it. real hard.

my head's so heavy and i'm too sleepy to even drag myself to bed wth.

i finally get to be online and am surveying my msn list. someone is emo-ing, someone is in desperate need of sleep, someone is looking for her racket, someone is ranting rather randomly, and someone isn't online.

i like australia, but australia is mean cos she steals my friends.

today dad turns 62, and he's old. doesn't look his age though, something which he's undoubtedly proud of. *cough*

off to sleep, and then back to attacking my books and papers.

i can't think straight anymore but i can't help but find myself thinking of......

... nvm.

4am thoughts

it's past four and i've yet to study for tomorrow's exam. am kinda brain dead anyway, lack of sleep taking it's toll on me (and omg i see wrinkles below my eyes).

i'm not procrastinating, i just dislike stats. also, my mind's kinda clouded by all these thoughts. i'm not distracted la, i just need to focus.

maybe sometimes it's better to just let it all pass and not do anything. but i feel as if i've been misled, albeit willingly on my part.

i chose to be ignorant and in denial when i knew it would eventually lead to this.

so, lesson learnt? afraid not. different situation, same mistakes waiting to be made. but hey, maybe things will be different this time around. oh wait, that's me being in denial again.

on a brighter note, the past week has been great, and i can't say how much it means to me to be able to meet up and hang out with you people, you know who you are. =)

and now it's time for me to hit the books. bai bai!

p.s. btw, pls tell me i'm not the only one that finds this disturbing.


daniel radcliffe and a horse

it's bachelor of science in human development, dah-ling

now, there have been many times when i get a lot of crap from people regarding my course. most have never heard of it before, and only when i relate it to psychology that they have an idea of what i'm learning. now that's really alright la, if they're not aware of it. yet even then, most do not think highly of psychology anyway, nevermind my course. too woolly and baseless for them, i suppose, compared to solid stuff like medicine or engineering or law.

there are some too, who didn't know this course was in my list of choices, up to the point that i actually just sardonically enjoy watching them squirm awkwardly after i inform them that i chose this "useless course". then there are the more patronising ones that find it fit to relentlessly instill in me that there are no job prospects for my course. my own parents don't give me that sort of shit advice. what job am i gonna get ah? POLE-DANCING la wtf.

(what? i'm sexy ok.)

of course, there are times when i do explain what i learn and how it comes into use (well, sort of la). doesn't matter whether or not you agree with me, but i do appreciate it when one actually listens to me before deciding if what i learn is pointless.

and i'm not saying that i think the world of my course. for those who sneer at it, i totally get what they think. because at some point before and during my course, i have thought those thoughts. yes. me myself. though obviously in a different tone, in which mine is more towards doubtful.

i have my reasons la k. it's not so much about the course but more of the uni's take on it. i mean, some of the exam questions (judging from last sem) are laughable. and i'm talking bout my course's core subjects, not of others like kenegaraan cos i didnt study enough for it it was freaking tough and it stole my A away from me.

and there are times when i actually miss biology and even chemistry wth. not maths though. screw maths la. anyway, the point is, i sometimes find myself half-wishing that i did, say, microbiology (miniscule things are cute ok). but then again, i know that i won't be able to do that for what, the rest of my life.

but u know, i come out of upsr pmr spm stpm and it doesnt seem like i've learned much. here, soft skills come in first and there are times when i find my course difficult, in it's own way. it's still a bit too soon to see what it will make of me, and what i will make of it.

but who says i won't make the best of it.