an apology

i feel terrible when i don't know what to say. and when i try to say the right words, they come out hollow and superficial. sometimes the way my words come out, it even sounds as if i'm not empathising with you. and i feel as if i'm one of those self-righteous on-lookers that you dislike so much.

and i feel terrible because i neglected you. i'm sorry it took more than a few calls (from you, no less) before you had a chance to say what you wanted to say. and i should have asked you about it when you first called. i did hear something in your voice, and i know i'd instinctively give the excuse that i was preoccupied.

and i'm sorry that i did not say i'm sorry to you, and even had you thanking me instead.

when in fact, i'm a terrible friend.

how about i make it up to you, and more, by looking out for you however i can?

dragon vs boobies

i was supposed to watch eragon with mummy dearest but the sight of jay chou, gong li and chow yun fatt made her change her mind. i was adamant bout watching eragon but she wanted to see curse of gong li's humongous boobs the golden flowers.

*sulks*

so anyway after the movie (no i did NOT watch the popping boobies *rolls eyes*), was eating lunch at mcDs outside cinema with mum (cos i wanted to gaze lovingly at the huge takeshi poster hehehe).


mum: do you want to know what happened to the three sons?

me: er, no, i dont wanna know.

mum: *dramatically* the 1st son was killed by the 3rd son, then the 3rd son was killed by his own father.

me: ......

mum: so, left the 2nd son, your jay chou. now he died cos he killed himself.

me: *points at takeshi poster* mum, look at takeshi better la, he so handsome.

mum: ya. and jay chou killed himself cos he was forced to kill gong li.

me: -____-"

sometimes i wonder if my mum actually listens to me.


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mum: so how was eragon?

me: oh, not too bad la, though of course no where as good as lotr.

mum: aiya, ALL the same wan la. eragon, lotr, harry potter, and star wars all the same la!

me: ...... ma, star wars is science fiction.

mum: star wars got all the things flying in the air, eragon, lotr all also has flying things.

me: ...... *sighs*


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[edit] black template! sorry for the blindingly white fonts heh. might change it later, or maybe not. rest assured my next template shall be PINK. =)

oooh~

it's christmas eve already!

merry christmas everyone =)

p.s: my hols coming to an end soon so i wanna meet up with the lot of you jokers i havent seen this hols! you know who you are~! XD

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belated thoughts which i am allowing through now.

sometimes overexposure with certain people leave me feeling moody and, well, mean. quite a while ago when i was in this kind of mood, i interrupted my own mean thoughts by pondering why i hardly felt this way before this, with other people.

it's not that anyone did or said anything wrong. it's just me, really. am i being hypocritical if i just played along?

because it wouldnt be right to voice out my thoughts, this kind of thoughts. and if i had to, i'd have to censor myself and edit the words and then add a coating of silliness to achieve the right tone so it sounds like ME.

throw too many at me, and my thoughts might just escape from me. oh, don't worry, i won't go beserk, shouting and all that. i'll be absolutely calm as i tear you down bit by bit. no hurry in something i'd probably enjoy, no?

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alright, well, at least that's out of my system.

...... cotton-candy, anyone? =D

i'm back...

and itching away. gah.

i don't understand, those ppl who got rashes/skin allergy had them few days ago, why am i only getting rashes TODAY?!

takkan my skin slow reaction. -_-"

*scratches a bit*

anyway i got rashes cos we did quite a bit of rolling about in mud. mud mud mud. i dunno why they like to get us all dirty.

the ceramahs were bloody boring, and occasionally mildly interesting. outdoor activities flunctuated from boring to annoyingly silly to really fun.

so yeah, there were the few activities that i really had a lot of fun and when we really worked together as a team. =)

1. our team wasnt like, the fastest team in those races or the team that won the most competitions but it's the best team ever! ok a bit too gung-ho. but i like my group, so there.

2. i realise i'm not that slow and my stamina is not that hopeless. well, relatively, at least. c'mon, i'm a CITY girl who doesnt like the outdoors, so i've gotta get SOME credit, no?

3. yes i know i'm fair/pale/white/hantu/scary/bak cham gai. do you know i'd like to be tanned but i can't? ok, now you know.

4. i got complimented on my body! by two girls la not guys. shut up and let me enjoy my moment cos how often do i get complimented! and shut up i know i'm damn flat-chested BUT IT'S NOT MY FAULT OK! now let us focus back on the fact that i was complimented.

5. am in love with kenangan terindah.

6. had mixed feelings but when i really think about it they're not that mixed up after all and when i really really think about it i shouldnt be having those feelings at all.

7. i hate cats with a vengeance cos they poop and pee everywhere and overturn every dustbin in sight. stupid cats. the two kittens are cute though. they are forgiven even though they freaked me out when they kept RUNNING after me, desperate for food. their mother, on the other hand, is not forgiven for being so fertile when there is lack of food for the cat population.

8. i cannot get four flat for this sem edi. damn sad. dont kacau me.

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today i finally got to see sis again and by this time her baby (ok, foetus) has already started kicking! and i can feel the kickings! small fart refused to kick at first until sis started playing her handphone ringtones. future music prodigee! WAHAHA. i SO want a baby la!