"God will provide"

not too long ago, after reading a book that particularly interested me, i've kinda took on a different perspective. i've previously had passing thoughts and opinions on certain issues, which were quite similar to some topics the book touched on. for example, why is it always about "me", or "my friends", "my family", etc. there were many occasions that gave me the impression that some are being unknowingly self-centered.

i'm talking about prayers and what some people pray for.

why suddenly pinpointing prayers? well, cos i've kinda wondered at the prayers some people make. there were times i got the impression that it was all about THEM. before i go on, here's a cute joke:

A dog says, "You pet me, you feed me, you shelter me, and you love me, you must be God."

A cat says, "You pet me, you feed me, you shelter me, and you love me, I must be god."

errr, malas to do citation wth. for a quick summary on the cat and dog theology, please click here.

now to be fair, some cats are dogs sometimes too, and it's not easy to be a dog anyway (to me la). a few incidents recently triggered me off in blogging about this. those out there, i'm curious. let me chuck you a question - what do you usually pray for?

thanking God? that He did something for you? praying for yourself? okay, so maybe you pray for other people, and other things. for your friend? for your family? for your loved ones? for your church?

and sometimes i come across requests for prayers that are rather quite inane. i'm not saying it's wrong, please don't get offended ya. i know that in my position, i'm not one to talk la.

i personally found the cat and dog theology thing a bit extreme for me, but it's probably cos i'm hardly ready for it. i'm not saying it's the absolute right way to interpret the religion - maybe it isn't, it all boils down to how you see it. but in my case it did put certain things into perspective. at least, i shook off a bit of my prior impression of the religion being partially selfish.

(and of course, i have some dissent towards certain ideas proposed by the cat and dog theology. but then again, even the authors acknowledged that some might find it extreme)

back to the prayers thing, again, i'm not saying those kind of prayers are wrong per se. it's just that, a change in perspective makes a whole lot of difference. it shifts from being self-centered to focusing on the glory of God (goodness i can't believe i'm typing this -_-).

before i come off sounding like a total hypocrite, i'll just end this... abruptly. haha.

also, a word of thanks to jue for lending me the meow and arf book.


disclaimer: btw, this post doesn't fully convey the whole cat and dog theology, nor the main message.

pork and beans

ok i know i'm really late in posting this... what to do, procrastinator. but i totally love this video, and the song is awesome =D personally, i'd say it's one of weezer's best.

for those who haven't watched this yet, see if u can spot the cameos - youtube celebs, internet phenomena and other miscellaneous stuff. i don't think i got all 100% of them though, but most are pretty obvious.

there's no need to complicate

it's all about PERSPECTIVE.

there's this little dilemma

ok first, before i start off on my rant about my "dilemma", i gotta say this - felicia's absolutely right omg. i'm having quarter-life crisis!!!

ok end of amazing-discovery plug. -_-

now, on my dilemma. so here's the thing. i'm not too sure if i should report this issue, or do something about it. it'll affect people who don't want to be affected. i'm pretty sure most people are happy clappy with the way things are going now.

i have this thing against a particular lecturer of mine. not that all lecturers in my uni aren't good. in fact, to be honest, here's the breakdown - some lecturers are hardly passable, some are decent enough, a handful are very good. however, there are one or two lecturers that really do not deserve much respect.

the worst lecturer on my list (up until last sem) was this guy who gave really awesome tips for exams. his exams were all mcqs, and for finals, there were about 50 mcqs if i remember correctly. so when he gave us tips, i was rather, um, pleasantly surprised that he gave tips for all questions. yah, 50 tips. and really la, not like he really needed to give tips cos most of his exam questions were quite... well, "easy" would be a politer term. i rather felt that the exam insulted our intelligence. the mcqs were riddled with absurdly ridiculous answer options, i vaguely remember wanting to smash my head onto the table during the exam, due to the sheer stupidity of some of the answer choices given.

though to be fair, it's not that the lecturer couldn't teach (and not that he was axcellent at it anyway la). just that, well, i had this guy for my first sem, and mainly because of him, i got the impression that my course is damn low quality.

well, subsequent semesters weren't that bad - i came across good lecturers as well, of course. particularly during my previous semester, where i had competent lecturers who were able to deliver.

and then there is this amazing lecturer this semester -_-

he's not stupid, really. in fact, he gives me the impression that he knows stuff. the first class of his that i attended, he remarked that he graded students according to his "mood". if he's in a good mood for that semester, more students will get A. unfortunately, he's pms-ing not in a good mood this semester, hence less people will score an A.

i couldn't help but raise my eyebrows at his words. but oh well, there are lecturers like these, nothing new, i'll let it slide.

so this lecturer mentioned before that experience is more important than academics, or something to that effect. i suppose exams aren't important to him. so what does he do? since exams are wayyy to hyped up and emphasised, maybe that's why he decided we don't need to do our first test. but i have a feeling ISO makes it wajib that we students have first tests for every subject. so how now lembu perang?

he decides that we'll get our "test scores" by lucky draw.

and the students agreed anyway, cos it's a win-win situation! no need to study and take first test, less hassle, more time for other subjects. and lowest score you'll get from the lucky draw is 16, with full marks being 20. so hey, why not? and this lecturer's been doing it previous semesters anyway.

... but honestly, lucky draw? how can one not be incredulous?

and, well that has got me wondering if i am gonna report this. but i'm sure many students won't exactly be jumping for joy if we now have to sit for a test, should the authorities decide to amend this matter.

(but we're STUDENTS and we're not here in uni to do stuff like LUCKY DRAW your exam marks RIGHT. OMG WTF LA DAMN STUPID.)

also, the lecturer has a... pretty creative mind. who knows what he might do to spite the students, if i do report him. i think some, if not many students here value their A's in different ways than i do.

... or am i being too uptight about this whole thing? am i some sort of conformist? but really, if he decided to grade us based on other stuff rather than exams, e.g. a debate or something constructive, i wouldn't have minded. in fact, that would work better for some subjects, rather than exams.

and i'll stop here, abruptly, as i'm feeling hungry and my friends are waiting for me.

kthxbai.

not emo anymore

i was contemplating taking down the post below *points down* after talking to jing. yeah, that one. yes la the EMO post. -_- but i figured, i shall just let it fester there. i know i can be silly at times, even though there isn't a reason to be. so i won't be doing anything. in all aspects regarding the whole issue. *cough*

other than that, my recent absence (online-wise)- pc's at my cousin's place cos it needs fixing. i know you guys miss me. don't shy, no need to deny =)

ok malas to blog edi. feels weird blogging on faculty computer.

i know i'm being silly

it's hard on me when i compare myself with someone so way above my league in practically every aspect. why do so? human nature kah. the drive to be better one, the awesome-r one.

and you know what's even harder on me? comparing myself with more than one. i sometimes just don't understand myself. would things be the way it was if it wasn't for certain turn of events.

if standards weren't set so high, maybe i wouldn't feel this bad.