ku katakan dengan indah

*blows off thick layer of dust accumulated on blog*

blame the procrastinator in me. blame the superdupercannotbebeaten bummer in me.

i'm incredibly lazy, i know. the new year 2010 post that never came to be. and the "woo-hoo i've JUST HANDED UP MY THESIS OH YEAH I'M A ROCK-STAR" post that also never came to be... overdue for slightly more than a year? yep. i did console myself that i can always bunch up the "woo-hoo i've JUST HANDED UP MY THESIS OH YEAH I'M A ROCK-STAR" post together with a post dedicated to my convocation and err uni life. with artsy shots of (mostly) my faculty yo! using my trusty Sony Ericsson 6xxx handphone camera. can't get ANYmore artsier than that.

speaking of which, why not just chuck in a few of those pics here?

artsy boh? damn artsy i know.



used to be what i see almost everyday in my uni life -
stumbling blearily up these suckers in great haste.
usually more than half an hour late for whatever class.



while studying for my final final exam. in bed.


arghhh damn nostalgic now. i want to drink kopi satu again while sitting on those mcdonald chairs.



said mcdonald chairs



the truth is, it scares me a little how fast time has passed. that i'm here, right now. another faceless person in the corporate world. faceless because am not that significant, and no, don't particularly have a drrrriiiiive to rise up in that sense.

i have been rather unhappy of late. but it comes in bursts, and i usually allow it. i give in, and i give up. i was told that i would look back, and be embarrassed and ashamed of myself. for being reduced to being all undignified, emotional and clingy. basically for being, you know, a blubbering mess.



pictured: me being a blubbering mess


yeah, nothing better like wallowing in your own sorrow. very, erm, therapeutic. i know i should've called a friend, someone, anyone for that matter, to talk to. i just didn't.



pictured: me wallowing in own sorrow.
also, = blubbering mess


as it goes, blubbering messes don't really make the best decisions. my decision for now? i'll just be "finding a replacement with my heart sedated".

whatever works for me, man.

...





... ok, i'm not really being serious, for the uninitiated. i'm obviously doing much better since i'm blogging about it. acceptance is the first step, and i've been in denial for too long. my biggest fear now is probably having denial whack me in the face again.

anyway. ice cream, anyone?

but whyyy =(

it's smelly when it's damp too ='(

maybe if i bundled everything i hated

into one BIG BALL, i would love that one BIG BALL?

if not, how is it possible that i'm totally hooked on a mash-up of mostly songs i hate? but even IF i had hated the mash-up, i would still admit that the remix is crazy good.

because it is!!





on a different topic... okay i know the obligatory new year post should be up by now. i'm champion procrastinator, what to do =P

(actually no la, i really want to do a post looking back at last year cos it was a pretty meaningful year to me)

my little green tortoise car

said goodbye to my little green car last sunday ='(

i sat inside the driver's seat for one last time after clearing my stuff from the car.

and i took a picture too



it came to me on Christmas day, when i was 18. silly little second-hand car. daddy drove it all the way from johor. my very first car, and it's been 5 years.


poor little rundown car. radio dah rosak, window dah rosak.



it took me through form 6, my entire uni life, my first (short-lived) job, and up til recently as i settled down in my new job.



the car door kena dented during my final sem in uni. dented edi, then cannot open.
that's why door handle broke off when li jian people tried to buka pintu



i apologized to my car for seldom hardly ever never washing it. eh, rain = free car wash mah. *cough* my car never complained ok, is good car =D



initial d sticker given by xue =) left an imprint on the window -_-



and i sat in my car reminiscing 5 years worth of memory...
among the most vivid ones were of it breaking down / dying in the middle of the highway, the many times when i langgar it... besides langgar car (4 times) and langgar motor (once) and kena langgar (twice), my car also langgar house gate, school gate, car park pillar, etc before -_-



every year sure langgar something one -_-



needless to say, the little green car quite sad condition =(
sangat the bising, and it vibrates very violenty -_-
i probably built quite a bit of arm muscle wrestling with the steering wheel all these while... especially when doing three point turns and the likes O_o



looook! lotr sticker, also from xue



but i is still loves my leeetle green car =(
(yes i know some people call it shit green. it's not shit green! it's a nice metallic green)


see, my (ex)car so cute. and NICE METALLIC GREEN.


i felt that to end this post, this picture would be particularly fitting




goodbye, my little green tortoise car.

too cute not to post up!

hello everybadi! i'm back for a quickie post - video plug!

argh i can't stop watching this video.

there's also another version - really cute too, but only almost as cute as the one above. *clicky!*

lost. not the tv series.

i feel as though i've made the wrong decision.

either that, or i'm incredibly weak.

(which, okay, i admit i AM weak.)

it's been bugging me ever since... well, at least from the second week.

i don't know if i'll be making the right decision this time, cos i have to make a decision.

i hate this nagging feeling.

but i have to make a decision.

actually, come think of it... i have already made the decision. what's left is when to execute it.

the moral of the story is, to follow what your heart tells you.

especially with a brain like mine, it's pointless to follow your mind.

for some reason, i feel more lost than when i started out.

hello everybadi~

the past week has certainly been eye-opening... if not crazy intensive -_- i have so much to learn, and there's so much i don't know! the learning curve is steep indeed. indeedy. indeedy do. indeedydoodydooda ok i shall stop.

anyway. it's a classic case of "the more you know, the more you realise just how much you don't know". which is good, really. and i'll be thrown in the deep end (to me it IS the deep end okayyy T_T) - but it's a good way to learn, i guess. i sound so optimistic and positive right. must keep this attitude mah -_- *waver*

on an equally bright note (if not brighter, ahem), my convo's next sunday!!! 9th august!!! prolly gonna wear baju kurung wth. argh. girls not allowed to wear slacks! new rule, apparently - only commenced last year. so now, girls can only wear dresses that reach the ANKLES wtf, or skirt labuh. which would be MAXI SKIRTS double wtf. I AM SO FRUSTRATED OVER THESE STUPID RULES ARGHHH. dammit la. right until the very last moment, at our graduation, and the uni still wants to antagonize us with these mindless rules. HONESTLY.

speaking of which, UPM kena H1N1 last week, sigh. but anyway! that's not important! what's important is my convocation ok. so come la to my convo! =D come one come allllll~ =D