it's hard on me when i compare myself with someone so way above my league in practically every aspect. why do so? human nature kah. the drive to be better one, the awesome-r one.
and you know what's even harder on me? comparing myself with more than one. i sometimes just don't understand myself. would things be the way it was if it wasn't for certain turn of events.
if standards weren't set so high, maybe i wouldn't feel this bad.